Salam..
Hari ni first appointment kat HTAA. Kejap je tgu, rupanye doktor main share bilik. Boleh gitu? hihi....
Agak terkejut dgn option yg doktor bg. Vaginal delivery vs Ceaserean.
hmmmm...
Very very tough decision.
When she explained bout the pros & cons, she began with vaginal first. Bla bla bla... then csect, bla bla bla.. My mind was blown away, my heart ached so much. I needed my husband, i needed to hold his hand badly, but he was outside with Nu'man.
Thats because the room was a bit crowded with other patient, other doctor and nurses running around the room. See? Kenapa ntah kena campur bilik. Tak paham aku.
Ok,back to our story.
Cara doktor cakap tu mcm dia suh letak tarikh trus utk operate. Duk tnye, so camne? So camne? Aku buntu, mintak tgu next week nnt aku bg keputusan. Lg sorg doktor ada suggest why not try for normal first. Then aku explain la pasal first experience dlu yg kene induce then pecah ketuban tetap takde bukaan. Sbbnye ialah big baby.
Td scan pun baby dh 3.48kg. Doktor ckp boleh jd kurang atau lebih 200gram, sbb tu panggil EFW (estimated fetus weight)
Kalau baby ialah 3.2kg, ok la but if she is 3.7kg? Dh terlebih dah tu. And for second birth ni doktor ckp kalau nk bersalin baby takleh lebih 3.5kg. hmm...sigh...
Kiman pergi amik kereta and bila he fetched me up, i tried to share the things doktor had said, but then i burst into tears. Cannot help myself dh. Taktau la. Maybe terngiang2 dgn ape yg doktor ckp. Yes, the risks and all that stuff. Ada pros & cons. Ntah la. Kesian laki aku sbb terkejut tiba2 bini dia nangis teresak2.huhu...
Puas pujuk hati sendiri tp air mata tak benti keluar. Perasaan masa tu mcm2. Semuanya negatif. Serius aku takut. Sangat!
Tapau makanan,balik rumah, makan. Kiman g ofis, Nu'man teman aku. Gaya dia mcm mengantuk tp dia tahan je mata. Main, tgk tv smbil bertempet je celah ketiak. Kejap2 sebut Mama...mama... seolah2 mcm dia tahu. Dia paham sgt. Nak tenangkan fikiran aku yg sgt2 serabut.
Suddenly dpt message from Kiman. He said he loves me so much and he knows that i'm stronger than i think. He knows we can go through this again, together. Tak kesah la normal or csect again. He will take a good care of me. Forget all the risks,nnt mkn je ubat. hmm... Ape lg, trus berderai air mata. How can i deserve someone who is so caring,gentle and loving like him? What did i do good? Alhamdulillah, u are the best sayang.
hmmm... Pastu bermesej ngn kak ja. Stakat ni dia je yg phm how to go through csect sbb dia pun rasa. Lg plak with complication during pregnancy & dah tahu kene operate since months pregnant lg. Dia ckp pedulik je ape org kata. Mmg la org bersalin normal akan ckp,try la normal. Nikmat sakit tu lain. Ape ingt kite operate ni tak sakit ke? lg plak nk kene pntang mcm2 nnt. Trus naik semangat aku masa tu. Thanks kak ja. betul ape ko ckp. yg pntg kite & baby selamat. tu je. ;)
Alhamdulillah, bersyukur di kelilingi family yg supportive.
Oh ye, hari ni 2 Muharram, genap 2 thn umur Nu'man ikut bulan Islam.
I love u so much son^shine! Muahhhhh♥♥♥♥
Hari ni first appointment kat HTAA. Kejap je tgu, rupanye doktor main share bilik. Boleh gitu? hihi....
Agak terkejut dgn option yg doktor bg. Vaginal delivery vs Ceaserean.
hmmmm...
Very very tough decision.
When she explained bout the pros & cons, she began with vaginal first. Bla bla bla... then csect, bla bla bla.. My mind was blown away, my heart ached so much. I needed my husband, i needed to hold his hand badly, but he was outside with Nu'man.
Thats because the room was a bit crowded with other patient, other doctor and nurses running around the room. See? Kenapa ntah kena campur bilik. Tak paham aku.
Ok,back to our story.
Cara doktor cakap tu mcm dia suh letak tarikh trus utk operate. Duk tnye, so camne? So camne? Aku buntu, mintak tgu next week nnt aku bg keputusan. Lg sorg doktor ada suggest why not try for normal first. Then aku explain la pasal first experience dlu yg kene induce then pecah ketuban tetap takde bukaan. Sbbnye ialah big baby.
Td scan pun baby dh 3.48kg. Doktor ckp boleh jd kurang atau lebih 200gram, sbb tu panggil EFW (estimated fetus weight)
Kalau baby ialah 3.2kg, ok la but if she is 3.7kg? Dh terlebih dah tu. And for second birth ni doktor ckp kalau nk bersalin baby takleh lebih 3.5kg. hmm...sigh...
Kiman pergi amik kereta and bila he fetched me up, i tried to share the things doktor had said, but then i burst into tears. Cannot help myself dh. Taktau la. Maybe terngiang2 dgn ape yg doktor ckp. Yes, the risks and all that stuff. Ada pros & cons. Ntah la. Kesian laki aku sbb terkejut tiba2 bini dia nangis teresak2.huhu...
Puas pujuk hati sendiri tp air mata tak benti keluar. Perasaan masa tu mcm2. Semuanya negatif. Serius aku takut. Sangat!
Tapau makanan,balik rumah, makan. Kiman g ofis, Nu'man teman aku. Gaya dia mcm mengantuk tp dia tahan je mata. Main, tgk tv smbil bertempet je celah ketiak. Kejap2 sebut Mama...mama... seolah2 mcm dia tahu. Dia paham sgt. Nak tenangkan fikiran aku yg sgt2 serabut.
Suddenly dpt message from Kiman. He said he loves me so much and he knows that i'm stronger than i think. He knows we can go through this again, together. Tak kesah la normal or csect again. He will take a good care of me. Forget all the risks,nnt mkn je ubat. hmm... Ape lg, trus berderai air mata. How can i deserve someone who is so caring,gentle and loving like him? What did i do good? Alhamdulillah, u are the best sayang.
hmmm... Pastu bermesej ngn kak ja. Stakat ni dia je yg phm how to go through csect sbb dia pun rasa. Lg plak with complication during pregnancy & dah tahu kene operate since months pregnant lg. Dia ckp pedulik je ape org kata. Mmg la org bersalin normal akan ckp,try la normal. Nikmat sakit tu lain. Ape ingt kite operate ni tak sakit ke? lg plak nk kene pntang mcm2 nnt. Trus naik semangat aku masa tu. Thanks kak ja. betul ape ko ckp. yg pntg kite & baby selamat. tu je. ;)
Alhamdulillah, bersyukur di kelilingi family yg supportive.
Oh ye, hari ni 2 Muharram, genap 2 thn umur Nu'man ikut bulan Islam.
I love u so much son^shine! Muahhhhh♥♥♥♥
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